First Three Days

So I started going down on Sunday. Since I was on 75 mg XR, I have gone to taking 25mg twice a day. The drug instructions say do this for 2 weeks, then go down to 25 mg per day for two weeks, then no more. We will see. From my previous attempts, I also have some 37.5 mg tabs around, so I may go to those between 50mg and 25mg in a 24 hour period.

Sunday:
Was great - felt on top of the world. I had energy to burn (scrubbed the whole house, top to bottom) while watching football and movies. Sex drive is higher than it has been in years! Had some trouble getting to sleep Sunday night, and then was up for a good chunk of the night with a horrible headache and nausea. It had begun. Only slept 4 hours total.

Monday:
Slept in a bit (luckily work is flexible and only 10 minutes drive away). Headache still present, nausea is very intense, and I threw-up once before noon. About 10am, the "brain-zaps" and vertigo started. My fingers feel like there are pins in them, and my chair feels like it is flying around the room once an hour. Thank god my new workplace has offices and very little interaction with others. My mind is cutting off sentences, and I can't complete a conversation about dinner with my husband. Thankfully he is amazing, and supportive, and with me all the way. I try to move around a bit, but the headache gets too intense, and I vomit again. Then the diarrhea. I drank 100 ounces of water to stave off dehydration. I make it to the end of the work day, but my husband has to come pick me up from work. I don't feel safe driving.

We ate dinner, and after a benedryl and 3 advil, I am starting to feel human. My husband helps me up and down, because the vertigo is so bad. After a while, we go to pick up my car from work. BAD IDEA. Almost wreck a few times in the 2 miles home, no reaction time, fuzzy brain, and difficultly focusing my eyes, on top of the zaps. Called a friend to arrange a ride home from work tomorrow - sure a hell am not driving - but can't express whole thoughts, my husband finishes the conversation. What would I do without him?

Exhausted by 9:30p, and my husband helps me get to bed. I try and fall asleep, but the headache is so intense and the nausea is so bad. I have my first crying storm and want to give up. My husband holds me until I fall asleep.

Tuesday:
So far my thoughts are coming together a little better. The headache is still very intense - 3 advil isn't touching it. The nausea comes and goes, but seems worse when I am nearing an eating time. Zero appetite, nothing sounds good to eat. Brain zaps are a little less frequent than yesterday, but finger tingling continues as I type, and my legs go numb and then "wake-up" tingle often, cyclically. My husband calls hourly between classes to check on me, and assures me that we can get through this. He will move up the timeline on having the baby if I do (HUGE MOTIVATION!!) (Post ends mid-day)